Second year, second sem. I took only 16 units and i had this fear of failing or dropping any subjects for it is a threat to my scholarship. Well, all my subjects were doing great excpet one, Fundamentals of Thermodynamics, the first major course I took.
My first exam was a painstaking 28 percent. The second one did increase after so much of a hardwork but still not enough, 50 percent. At that time, i started asking myself about my future. Am i really for Mechanical Engineering? It is as if i am loosing my faithfulness to it as i started suffering so much of academic pain. I was hardly studying for it and yet nothing any great happened, and so, i had this "deal" with God. Actually, this is the first time I made a "deal" with God and it also happened that the day after it was our third long examination.
With desperation i told God: "Lord, if i will fail in this third long exam, then that means that i am not really meant for mechanical engineering! I will be shifting out to another course!" That was as if i took a risk. Why? It because i still do not have any course in my mind that i could shift at. "But a deal is a deal." I told myself. And i continued studying.
Days later, i shared this deal with my friends. Some said, "Ok ka lang ba, saan ka magshishift kung bumagsak ka nga?" "Grabe bro, grabe yang deal mo, pero anu ba talagang gusto mo?" Thats the only time i have realized that indeed i put myself into a risk but still i must be committed to the "deal" i had with God. But if God himself will ask me, I want to stay in Mechanical Engineering.
Now here's the story of my third exam. It was easy! As simple as that. The truth is that was the first time i finished the exam so fast and that experience gave me somehow the answer to the "deal" i had with God. But i did not rejoice yet and waited for the proof, the results of my third exam.
My heart was pounding as i was reaching to my papers. Slowly, i looked at the papers and found the red markings the professor had made on my sheets. Adrenaline rushed through my veins and my heart almost leapt out for joy as i saw my score: 78.33 percent!
I passed the third exam! I passed the third exam! I passed the third exam! God did not just make my exam easy but he also confrimed to me that i am indeed meant for Mechanical Engineering!
That experience did not only strengthened my faithfulness to my dream of becoming a Mechanical Engineer but most of all to God's destiny for me, to His plan for my life. God gave me hope and also reminded me that yes we may be facing alot of hardships in our lives but it does not mean that God will leave us. Actually, He will always be with us and will continuously pursue His plan for us, no matter what it takes. We just have to trust in Him. I may not fathom the mystery of the plan that aheads us but now, there is a peace already in my heart as I face the challenges of every new day.
3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us Romans 5:3-5
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Cor12:9
i relaized that there is actually no reason for us to be shaken for the Lord is always before us. Like Paul, we too are destined for greatness!. Nehemiah may had faced alot of dangers upon rebuilding the walls of Israel but it did not stopped him from pursuing the will of God. It is because God is always with him.
And God is with us too. Always. And it is just a matter of trusting His great and perfect plan for us.
